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Morning Prayer: chaste of mind and soul

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  To pray for a chaste mind and soul is to ask God to purify the interior landscape where our real life is lived. Long before our bodies act, our thoughts wander. Long before our hands reach, our desires lean. The mind is where we rehearse our loves, our fears, our fantasies, our resentments. The soul is where we store our motives, our loyalties, our hidden hungers. To be chaste in these places is to ask for a kind of inner clarity—an honesty before God that refuses to let anything take root that distorts how we see ourselves or how we see others. Chastity of mind means guarding the imagination. It means refusing to let our thoughts turn people into objects, trophies, threats, or tools. It means noticing when our inner commentary becomes possessive, envious, or self‑indulgent, and gently redirecting it toward truth. Chastity of soul means tending the deeper movements of the heart: the intentions behind our choices, the quiet impulses that shape our relationships, the subtle ways w...

Cancer Diary: When Itching Refuses to Go Away

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Itching is one of the most ancient sensations — a primal alarm meant to protect us from danger. A mosquito bite, a healing wound, a brush with poison oak — all trigger the same neural symphony: irritation, awareness, response. We scratch, we soothe, we move on. But what happens when the itch doesn’t move on? Persistent itching — especially when it has no visible cause — can be more than a skin story. Sometimes, it’s a whisper from deeper within the body. 1. The skin as messenger The skin is not just a covering; it is an organ of communication. It reflects internal chemistry, immune activity, and even the presence of malignancy. When cancer alters metabolism or immune signaling, the skin often reacts first. Common cancer-related causes of chronic itching include: Lymphomas (especially Hodgkin’s disease) Leukemias Liver cancers and bile duct obstruction Kidney cancers (through toxin buildup) Pancreatic cancer (via bile salt accumulation) Blood cancers that alter histamine and cytoki...

When an Estranged Child Dies

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  Grief takes on strange shapes when the bond was broken before death. There is the ache of loss, but also the ache of what was never healed — the conversations that never happened, the reconciliation that never came. It is grief mixed with guilt, anger, confusion, and love that still exists despite everything. You may find yourself mourning not only the child who died, but the relationship that could have been. You may grieve the years of silence, the missed birthdays, the stubborn pride that kept you apart. And yet, grief does not ask for permission. It arrives anyway — uninvited, insistent, demanding to be felt. Processing this kind of grief means: Allowing conflicting emotions to coexist — sorrow and relief, love and regret. Naming what was broken without trying to fix it now. Finding ways to honor your child’s life even if your connection was painful. Seeking support from those who can hold complexity without judgment. Forgiving yourself for being human — imperfect, wounded, a...