Three Repetitions and It’s Mine: Memory as Muscle, Pattern, and Presence

Most people use calendars, apps, flashcards, sticky notes. I use something else—something harder to explain and impossible to hold: a memory system that's lived-in, patterned, and quietly persistent. When I was a scholarship student at Penn State, I participated in three memory experiments. I liked being a subject—it paid, and money was tight. But each time, I ended up skewing the data. The researchers weren’t sure how to process results that didn’t show the typical learning curve. After the third experiment, I was gently asked not to participate further. They weren’t allowed to ask follow-up questions, according to protocol. But if they had, I could’ve told them exactly what was happening. One experiment presented 52 three-word sentences in a made-up language, each translated into English. The first ten sentences introduced new vocabulary; the remaining ones simply rearranged or repeated those words in different combinations. Afterward, we were asked to translate additional se...