Daily Excerpt: He's a Porn Addict...Now What? (Overbay and Shea) - Concealing Addiction

 



This excerpt comes from He's a Porn Addict...Now What? (Overbay and Shea)

How did he manage to conceal it all so well and deceive me for such a long time? 

Tony, the mental health professional:

You may have just found out, but more than likely there have been years of this pattern of behavior on his part that have led to either his disclosure or your discovery, and during these years there has undoubtedly been a tremendous amount of guilt and shame on his part.

Guilt can be a good emotion, because it can cause someone to evaluate a situation and motivate them to do something different. But when shame kicks in, that’s the voice that tells you, “You’re a horrible person and you’ll never overcome this. People are going to know you’re a fraud, or that you’re disgusting if they ever find out about this.” Pornography is the type of addiction that for most individuals is laced with guilt and shame, evolving into an addiction fueled by isolation because they don’t want anyone to know anything about it

In my practice, I can’t count the number of times I’ve had a couple in front of me and the wife (who has no idea about her husband’s use) says something like, “My friend Tina caught her husband Bob looking at pornography. I can’t believe guys look at that, it’s disgusting! She kicked him out. If that happened to me, I’d do the same thing!”

Even if he wanted to disclose his use at this time, he’s hearing a message that his addiction is going to end his marriage. He’s going to have to leave. His life as he knows it will be over. All of this leads to even more guilt and shame, which will just lead to more isolation.

For him, concealing has been part of a routine. When I work with clients trying to break pornography addiction, often times we’re trying to break that routine, which has been solid and foolproof for years.

Most men have a mental checklist as part of their routine: Make sure she’s gone, lock the door, close the blinds, make sure the phone is nearby. There’s also a routine for when he is finished, and neither are haphazard. They are methodical about things. They craft a world where they can do this and nobody is going to know. As the addiction grows, they may get more extreme with things like burner phones or installing apps to hide their behavior. The depth of guilt and shame associated with this addiction have caused him to work diligently to keep it hidden from you.  

 

Josh, the former pornography addict:

My wife was under the impression I looked at porn once in a while. She was never a prude and believed an occasional glance at porn was just something guys do. Unfortunately, she had no idea the extent to which I watched, nor the reasons for my use, which put me far into the addict category.

I’ve been a porn addict since the very first time I saw hardcore pornography at 11. By the point I met my wife, around 15 years later, I knew how to hide my porn use from my parents, girlfriends, roommates, friends and every other human I came into contact with. Hiding my use from my wife was never a challenge, nor did it ever feel like a deceitful behavior because I’d been doing it so long.

When I reached the most critical stage of my porn addiction, I had sunk to such lows (including communicating with women in chat rooms) that even if I had wanted to come clean about my behavior, the potential cost of disclosure seemed too great. I thought she would leave if I told her what was happening.

If you’re a typical partner in what you believe is a healthy relationship, your life is not consumed by what your husband or boyfriend is doing when you’re not around. Even if you have relationship problems, pornography addiction is not one of those things that’s we’re programmed to look for in our partners. It’s easy to hide what the other person is not looking for.

Have you ever noticed the moon in the sky in the middle of the day? It’s almost always there, but you really don’t see it unless you’re actively looking for it. Were you actively looking for a pornography addiction? I know my wife was not. I had enough other issues on the surface that she needed to deal with. Spending the time and energy to dig deep and look for things that weren’t obvious was not something she did.

The revelation that he successfully hid this from you for a long time should not make you feel like you weren’t paying enough attention. It should not make you feel stupid or ignorant. It should not make you feel like you were played for a fool. He hid his behavior because he knew you would not approve and that it would hurt you. He likely also felt a great amount of shame using it to meet whatever gap it filled in his mind, body and soul. This doesn’t excuse the behavior, but hopefully once you can internalize this, you’ll realize the bigger question is why he needed it in the first place.




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